All the words are harsh and mean and nothing that I know

I am told to fear you yet your love is all I have been shown

I am imprisoned in these walls that keep me from you. I am so sad and angry… Daddy, please help me to break free to you

Every place I look around every place I go

There is nothing here familiar to me and not much I know

There is a pain deep in my chest. It hurts. I want to cry... Daddy, please help me to let it go and release the tears from my eyes

I want your lap to climb up into; your protective arms around

There are men here…men I do not know

I stay hidden and silent … Daddy please make them go

There are lies and twisting of the truth

There is an army stacked against you ensuring you will lose

There is little me hidden in the shadows… Daddy oh Daddy I want to stop the judgments and gavels

There is a man here now a man that I know

He hurts me and makes me feel sick; a sickness I do not show

The kind of sick that makes me want to fade away… Daddy please help me to let it go

There is the threat of punishment here

The fear that surrounds us makes us tip-toe

As little children sometimes we just do not know… Daddy please help me just to know

There is a want in my heart; a want I don’t understand

All that I fill it with breaks me more and all I want is a better man

A lack that I no longer want inside deep within my soul… Daddy please, please I beg of you please help me to let it go

My body is breaking and withering away

It's trauma, trauma not released they say

Stored deep within the memories I possess. I am so ill… Daddy, please help me to let it go

There is a child, a little girl who looks and acts like you

I found her Daddy. I have found her and brought her back to you

And when I did all was restored bright shiny and new

And now I say dear Daddy may I forever be loved openly by you

Daddy, please make them see that all I ever wanted was peace, kindness, and the love of both of you.

Parental alienation can have a detrimental impact on a child well into their adult years. It is when one parent tries to ruin the image, cut off love, or all-out remove the other parent from the child's life. This can be on a large spectrum from what seems like minor or harmless acts to full-out alienation of the parent-child relationship.

This can lead to long-lasting effects on the child. Like mental and physical health issues, further trauma exposure, attachment and abandonment issues, relationship issues, and so on. It can also lead to the child eventually alienating themselves from the parent that originally caused the lost relationship. This in itself will lead to further emotional harm.

By nature, the child wants the love and relationship of both parents.

My life story is an example of the effects of parental alienation on a child into adulthood, as well as, generational trauma within my family as a result of this.

Within the chapter “Lost Identity” and some to follow, I tell my story through the child's experience. My birth parent unfortunately passed away before we could be reunited. In my parent's honor, I will forever advocate for children and bring awareness to this form of abuse.

May we all find a better way.

Love and light,

Jocelyn.

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